A few doors slammed in my face, and some that just don't seem to want to open for me.
And that has me considering who I am marketing to… who am I writing for?
Someone like me, truthfully, but what does that mean?
A mature woman who's had her ups and downs in life and took them on the chin. A middle-aged girl with some grit, who hasn't run out of hopes and dreams yet. A smart lady (and I use that term loosely) whose confidence grows with every year she ages, and whose fuck you finger gets a daily work out.
That's who I write for.
And I don't even do it on purpose.
I don't plan, I write off the cuff.
It’s funny; I’m always in awe of authors who are able to plan their stories ahead in great detail and firm outlines. I wish I could do that, be a structured person like that.
But I’m not.
I’m what is considered to be a pantser.
Flying by the seat of my pants; all day—every day.
I literally have to ‘feel’ my stories out. It often starts with the people. I’ll mull for weeks on an imaginary character, creating context and traits in my mind. Contemplating how that ‘person’ would react, given certain circumstances. What they would do, how they would feel. Then I start imagining a plot that would bring that character, with those traits and that background, to life.
Their response and reaction to challenges they face in the story, is as new and surprising to me as it is to them. We learn what makes them tick, together. Perhaps that’s why my stories aren’t always action packed from beginning to end, because life doesn’t really work like that. Even at the height of conflict and controversy, there are lulls. Times where the mundane becomes the focus, as it does in life.
It’s all (mostly) imagination, but bringing in a touch of reality here and there, even in the middle of my fictional world, is important to me.
It keeps me, and I hope my readers, grounded.
But I guess it also makes my stories a bit unpredictable and unconventional.
Much like life…
So yeah, I'm not sure where I fit in the grand scope of things.
But to be honest, I think not fitting in and instead creating my own groove, may fit me better.